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Tuesday, September 3, 2019

My Name Mean Broken

"CHINGALING!" Laura and Zola shouted as a glass vase crashed to the floor. They saw me standing in the doorway of their white stucco home. Saturdays were high dusting days for this mother and daughter team and I startled them.

I came to say goodbye.  It was time for me to leave Honduras and return to Rhode Island, USA.
I worked in Guinope for three months assisting Dr. Pearlita Marcy at the local medical clinic.   
The people of Guinope were now my friends.  We ate together, prayed together and laughed together.
When I first arrived in Guinope many people could not pronounce my name, Cherrilynn (Sherry Lynn) As hard as they tried they could not pronounce the "SH";  it always sounded like "CHI".    
My name became Chingaling. I grew to love it.
Unbeknownst to everyone in Guinope, my heart was broken.  
I was in a rocky relationship with a gentleman from the states. The relationship had ended, but I did not want to let go. 
Holding on seemed to be a pattern with me.
I could not leave my emotional baggage at the airport when I arrived, I dragged it down dirt roads, through the hospital at Tegucigalpa, and rested it by my bed at night.
 My wounds from childhood abuse screamed to be healed, and they would not stop just because I was in a foreign land.
 I was good at hiding all that brokenness, fear, and depression.

The Lord was at work in this quiet mountainside village.
His loving hand desired to touch my wounds and mend them as I helped the doctor heal physical wounds.
I had many long talks with God as I walked through the dusty streets of Guinope. (emotional baggage in tow)
 God began to heal my broken heart. The weight of despair dissipated as I loosened my grip on the handle of my broken identity.

"As my friends turned to stare at the glass shattered on the floor.
Chingaling!"  they repeated.
"Are you that happy to see me?" I said.
"No, I mean yes," Laura said.
Then Laura and Zoila looked at each other with amusement and delight.
"Chingaling!" they shouted and began to laugh a full belly laugh. 
I thought they were going to fall off the wood seats.
"What's so funny?"
I began to laugh with them.
They stepped off the chairs, avoiding the glass.
"Chingaling," Laura said as she pointed to the broken glass on the floor.  Laura spoke fluent English.
"The Spanish word for the sound of glass as it crashes to the floor is chingaling."
I hugged them both and Laura and I cleaned up the glass.
As I swept the pieces of broken glass into the dustpan, the Holy Spirit impressed these words upon my heart.
Chingaling, I am sweeping up the broken pieces of your heart.  I will mend them together for my joy and purpose.
The Lord also reminded me of Scripture
 "He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds." Psalm 147:3 

That was many years ago.  God kept His promise. My heart's healed from past abuse and my baggage is gone. 
 I only remember a few Spanish words, but I will never forget my name, Chingaling. 
Do you feel shattered, like there are too many broken pieces to repair?
God promises to bind the brokenhearted. Run into His loving arms for healing.
Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed;
save me, and I shall be saved,
for you are my praise.  Jeremiah 17:14



Tuesday, August 13, 2019

THE YOKES ON ME




"Dad, don't talk to mom she's not in a good mood today."
I was anxious to complete the edits for my first book. As a new writer, I had much to learn. I felt inadequate. Fear set in.
Will I finish, will it be good, will I disappoint my editor?
I got grumpy and my worry caused my family to suffer.
I prayed.
Why am I so anxious, you called me to write. Help me figure this out, Lord. 
One Sunday morning the message changed my attitude. The pastor said.
 "Freedom is only found when yoked to Jesus." 
He continued. "Being yoked to someone or something is to be coupled with them. Farmers yoke young oxen to an older, stronger, more experienced animal which sustains most of the burden and guides the young animal through the learning process. Are you yoked to Jesus? Jesus calls to you…"
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Mathew 11:28-30
The Holy Spirit stirred my soul.
That's why I'm anxious and cranky I'm not yoked to Jesus.
I prayed, Jesus, help me cast my cares on you. Help me stay yoked to you and not run ahead.
Now, before my feet hit the floor I pray, Jesus I am yoked to you, whatever comes our way, I want to learn from you and let you guide me.
I picture giving Jesus my problem and I walk away. 

My angst for editing has dissipated, in fact, with Jesus by my side, I started a business editing and coaching other writers.
I’m proud to say, “the yoke is on me!”
Are you yoked to Jesus today?
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Wednesday, June 26, 2019

MORE ALIVE THAN EVER

"I miss grampa," my son said with tears streaming down his face.
"I wish he never died"
My heart broke as my son sobbed and hugged his bear.
I missed him too.
I prayed and asked God to give me the words to say.
"I also miss grandma Colby, and Terry, and I know you must miss Sue."
My fourteen-year-old son has experienced much loss over the last few years. All followers of Jesus.
As I hugged my son the Spirit impressed upon my heart 2 Corinthians 5:8 where the Apostle Paul states,
Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord.
I thought to myself,
In the Lords presence, no one is dead. In fact, they are more alive than ever.
"Michael, Their bodies are in the ground, but their spirits are with Jesus. They are all more alive than ever. No cancer or Alzheimer's. "
I silently thanked God for giving me the words to say to my grieving son. I too was encouraged, picturing my loved ones walking and talking with Jesus.
"Do you think they are talking to each other?" my son said as he hugged his bear tighter.
"Yes, I bet grandma and Jesus are square-dancing."
"I still miss them, mom."
"It's ok to miss them, but they do not want us to fret because we will see them again."
"I can't wait to hug them and Jesus."
My son smiled and swirled his bear in the air, the bear danced.
Death will never have victory over a believer (tweet this)
Do you have a loved one in Heaven?  Share a fond memory. Join the conversation.



Sunday, May 12, 2019

YOU ARE BEING FOLLOWED!



"Cherrilynn, I'm scared, this guy is getting too close to us."
My Navy friend and I  enjoyed dinner and a late movie downtown. The bus stop was two blocks from the cinema.
"Just don't act scared, he may leave." I tried to reassure my friend.
We picked up our pace.
The stranger's footsteps grew louder and fasters.
"He's getting closer!" she whispered
"Don't panic!"
"Cherrilynn, I'm scared."
With military precision, I did an about-face, looked the man in the eyes,
"YOU ARE SCARING MY FRIEND BACK OFF NOW!"
The man could not see my knees shake, I felt sick to my stomach.
His eyes widened, as he felt my breath on his face.
"Sorry, I didn't realize I was so close," he said.
"Yeah, Right! Pay attention next time, now leave!" I said trying to hold my weak legs in place, in awe of my sudden boldness (or stupidity).
The man turned around and walked in the opposite direction.
My friend and I ran to the bus stop. We vowed to bring the guys with us next time for protection.

Have you been followed?




Don't be scared, it's not a stranger but something so amazing- Gods goodness and mercy.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, Psalm 23:6 ESV

Psalm 23 depicts a glorious picture. In front of us, leading us, is Jesus, the good Shepherd. He protects us and provides for our every need as we follow Him.
Securing our safety and security in the rear-God's goodness and mercy

Charles Surgeon-a pastor and theologian describes this verse:
"These twin guardian angels will always be with me at my back and my beck. Just as when great princes go abroad they must not go unattended, so it is with the believer." (Spurgeon)

What follows you? Bad memories, sin, a painful past? God's goodness and mercy will protect you. 

*Goodness- Tovebeautiful, best, better, bountiful, cheerful, at ease
*Mercy-Checed-favour, good deed, beauty, kindness

A believer who follows Jesus closely is guarded by God's best, we have favor all around us. 


Let's relax and follow the Shephard of our souls as His goodness and mercy follow' us.
Are you being followed?
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*definitions from www.blueletterbible.com